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Well, considering that the FBI parts were usually on a separate VOB file or something.

I'm sorry you keep getting sick, Sandy. I know how that feels.

RAMChYLD Wrote:Nothing to shout about. We all have one.

Heck, I ended up with two due to my persistence on acquiring Daisy Dreams.

Could you try to be more rude? Sheesh. Not all of us have always had money to spare nor childhoods with the toys we wanted, and regardless, that bragging of yours was just rude no matter how you look at it.

Stella Grapes Wrote:Could you try to be more rude? Sheesh. Not all of us have always had money to spare nor childhoods with the toys we wanted, and regardless, that bragging of yours was just rude no matter how you look at it.

Fine. I'm sorry I was rude. I don't want to talk about what overcame me.

One more thing. You think you did not get what you want during your childhood. How about having nothing at all?

Sorry, I can't take this anymore. The dreaded month is upon me. I only have bad memories, and now that I'm certain that Hasbro is lying, that Malaysia will never get MLP:FIM on TV, and thus I cannot officially detest what Hasbro is doing to the series.

I might consider going on vanishing for December. If I can't have back Madeline...

RAMChYLD Wrote:Fine. I'm sorry I was rude. I don't want to talk about what overcame me.

One more thing. You think you did not get what you want during your childhood. How about having nothing at all?

Sorry, I can't take this anymore. The dreaded month is upon me. I only have bad memories, and now that I'm certain that Hasbro is lying, that Malaysia will never get MLP:FIM on TV, and thus I cannot officially detest what Hasbro is doing to the series.

I might consider going on vanishing for December. If I can't have back Madeline...

Has it ever occurred to you to leave the bad memories behind and just move on? How many times have we (or I) told you that? I lost count.

I know why you were rude to me, but I won't discuss it here either. The thing is that you really need stop letting the past upset you so much. I don't always get what I want either, but do you see me getting depressed about it? No. You haven't. I know for a fact that I won't always have what I want, and I must move on. You can't let the events of the past sour your perception of the month of December and the holiday that is Christmas.

The past is the past. Just leave it behind and go forward.

Sheesh, it was unintentional, okay? I had no intention to sound rude. I apologize.

RAMChYLD Wrote:You think you did not get what you want during your childhood. How about having nothing at all?

Don't go there. I only poke the itty bitty tip of the iceberg with what I normally say about my past in public. You had a lot more than I had. My brothers and I nearly starved to death after my father abandoned our family, because our mother chose to eat out alone every day and not feed us anything besides moldy bread. We picked at the moldy bread and invented a game called Starving Orphans to try to make something fun out of it. You... really don't have a clue what all I endured. You never will. It's not something I want to share in-depth with people who do not care. I can sum it up by saying that my parents, particularly my mother, on a continual basis, physically and mentally abused me into developing psychogenic seizures that I've lived with for the majority of my life. I had no safe space, not even in my home. Of course I was disowned. Through most of my young adulthood, I was homeless. I continued to be homeless on-and-off until the year before I married.

You bet I have scars. You bet I understand being traumatized by the past. At least I try to live for today. Despite trying, there are times when I have to be heavily medicated to prevent hallucinations and flashbacks of my mother attacking me. For goodness' sake, she was my mother! I wanted so desperately to be a good daughter! I still feel like a failure of a daughter. I feel like my mother is jealous even in her grave, jealous of the loving relationships which her children have with her grandchildren.

Please don't worry about me, though. We all have our burdens. The psychogenic attacks are very rare. I can go for years without them occurring at all.

It... is irritating for me when you act as though irrelevant things like a website as logical as coin-flipping "ruined" Christmas for you, or when you act as though TV stations not broadcasting a show, or not being able to find such-and-such specific item, or meta theories about voice actresses being "corrupted"... are destroying your life. You're letting such things destroy your life. I'm sorry you were harshly bullied in school, truly I am, but lots and lots of people in the world were bullied in school and they don't... come to the conclusions that you do.

You need help. I know you're reading this and feeling defensive. I know you're not going to seek help. You need help, though. Listen, please. I wouldn't be saying these things if you didn't matter to me. The people in your life would most likely respect you much more if you did try to get help and really, truly try to stay on top of whatever it is that causes your descents into madness. Heck, I've been hailed as a hero for managing bipolar disorder, hailed as a hero by people who have no clue that I have PTSD. Something else of note is that there is this beautiful world of support from other patients. It's warm and welcoming, not dangerous and scary like "crazy people" are stereotyped as. If you avail yourself, you'll be greeted with a lot of love from some of the greatest friends you'll ever have.

My husband, who had a normal time growing up and has a reputation for being able to do (or at least trying to do, and usually eventually being able to do) just about anything, fights depression. I don't think we would be together if we didn't have some kind of mutual illness, actually. I also don't think I would be more-or-less telepathic with Ben if we didn't have mutual challenges.

I don't really know what I am getting at now. Just... please, you can't keep spiraling downwards. Help is a good thing.

You don't have to hibernate through December. An entire month of the year is a trigger you're just going to have to get over. It's an entire month! Blast it all by ENJOYING December and ENJOYING the holidays. You're letting a bully (who most likely forgot that you exist) win if you don't! You're triumphing if you do!

>.< previous message ignored. Fine, I'll take a December hiatus if it makes all of you happy.

RAMChYLD Wrote:>.< previous message ignored. Fine, I'll take a December hiatus if it makes all of you happy.

No, it doesn't make anyone any happier.

David, I don't mean to make you feel cornered or such. But I want to tell you that you need to sit down, take a deep breath, and think more positively. I understand that there are things in that month that will make you feel uncomfortable, but try to put those things aside and look more towards other things you can enjoy, no matter how trivial.

RAMChYLD Wrote:>.< previous message ignored.

It wasn't intentionally ignored. You wrote it while I was in the process of writing my last message, and seeing it didn't detour me from pressing the "Submit" button.

Well, let us now move on to other subjects. Happier subjects.

I got up earlier than I usually do today. Why? I watched/recorded "The Poky Little Puppy's First Christmas!" It's such a cute little Christmas special that needs to be on DVD. But, I made my own copy of the special to hold me over until it does come out on DVD. I was surprised to see it air on TV at all.

I have to watch it again since I was still groggy this morning. I normally don't wake up at 8:45am on Monday mornings.