I shouldn't have such a messed up sleep schedule (or lack of a schedule) this week! This morning, I dreamed someone was selling a car. "Please buy this white car or he will cry," said the salesman. The car was blue and already crying. I reached out to pet the car, and I woke up.
Insert "Sour Grapes always calls things faboo!" in place of the song lyrics. Stella Grapes is still shaken.
Ugh. I messed up James' birthday twice (once mixing it up with his brother's birthday and once hearing the date wrong) while he was busy spoiling me by sending me presents, I called my engagement date an "extremely special date" instead of explaining to the public that I had gotten engaged, I posted so much silly junk and wrote and drew badly, I kept reviewing things nobody cared about, I didn't participate in the roleplay because my mind was a million and one places, I gave my hamsters away, I was a horrible jerk to James, I was a horrible jerk about special needs people which is completely embarrassing now, I said "faboo", I was so scatterbrained, and I was just Ben's silly female lackey with no purpose in life back then.
Now I save children and disabled people. I don't deserve my family. Why did I waste so much of my life? Why did James marry such a nitwit?
For the most part, I think I am being too harsh with myself. I recall a guy saying, "I hope your dolls miss you when you're dead and gone, because no one else will!" The guy said this about a year or two prior to the time of the forum I saw, and at least more people liked me by then. Still, I feel like I was a very selfish lady.
I was certainly taking advantage of James for a while. I thought our relationship would be like my other relationships: temporary. Meanwhile, James adored me. He adored me so much, and he still does. I can't forgive myself for taking advantage of such an incredible person. When he proposed to me, I knew it was coming and sobbed nonetheless, knowing I didn't deserve him. I still don't deserve him. He's made my dreams come true. I cannot compete with that.
My volume 1 of the new Strawberry Shortcake comic book came today! It was great, it's stories were simple and cute as long with the art, totally worth the 7 dollars total I spent on it.
Can't wait for the next volumes to become avaiable online. I'll go into detail about it on another thread later on.
It's fun to say berry! I berry talk all the day through!
You know how Windows attracts more viruses and malware than Macs? That's true, but that doesn't mean Macs are 100% safe from Malware.
Last night, I was trying to visit the website of one internet TV series that I watch, and soon after I arrived, Safari gave me a warning that the site was trying to serve me malware.
If it wasn't for Safari's malware warning, Lilly would probably have one of those fake antivirus programs installed now.
Lilly does have an official, non-rogue antivirus, Sophos Antivirus Home Edition.
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Why did James marry such a nitwit? 
