Stella Grapes Wrote:Alive, with the glory of love. You?
I'm great, but I do have a bad head cold that I'm getting over. I felt so miserable yesterday.
RAMChYLD Wrote:Thinking of disappearing again. Psychological stress peaking.
I hope/wish December 21st is real. If this is how the world wishes to treat me, then I wish it gone.
I do not deserve to be a freak of nature, to be alone. I don't want to be alone.
If you don't want to be alone, why do you want to disappear into the ether? That would make you even more alone than you are now. You are technically not alone at least here. You got Grapes, Blake, Sandy, Me, and that other one who name escapes me at the moment. (sorry)
Don't be like George. I do not know why he disappeared into the ether, but it's apparent that he may be ignoring us for reasons unknown. Maybe he didn't want to associate himself with us? Maybe he is depressed himself? He is back to reviewing stuff on Amazon, but why is he not contacting us? Why am I getting so off track?
As for that Hasbro pony toy rumor, just finish collecting all the ponies before said integration takes place. You will know when integration starts, possibly with toys molded to be show accurate or tie ins. Keep your focus off show accurate or tie-in toys and get stuff pre-integration.
As for you being a freak of nature....
I do not think that is true. I do personally think you need help from a professional, but since you keep refusing my advice there, I will not beat a dead horse again. Instead, take a look at me....
I'm a 25 year old male who like children's cartoons such as Max & Ruby, My Friend Rabbit, and the Little Polar Bear, and I collect kids picture books because I like the artwork. I have autism, so I have trouble dealing with people every now and then, but I am learning from my mistakes. I am also a college student who is serious about his studies and I am getting close to finishing an internship at a radio station. I am also heavily into computers, like you, which is why I became friends with you in the first place. That was nearly 10 years ago.
Given these details, would you consider me a freak?
I have similar interests that you have. That alone makes no one a freak, no matter what anyone else tells you. There will always be horrible people in your life, and unfortunately, Malaysia wasn't really a great place to grow up in. But did you have any say in that? No, not that I know of.
You may be thinking that I am better off because I got raised in a country that has more rights and freedoms than yours, but I had a difficult time in middle school as well. I got teased left and right to no end, and it depressed me severely. Yet, I was able to let things go and move on by seeking help from counselors and my own free will. Eventually, the teasing stopped as I got towards the end of high school, but even today, I can still get depressed if someone teases me the wrong way or if I get slighted somewhere, but I don't go on and on for weeks on end hanging on to that grudge and letting it take control of my own life. It's not healthy to keep holding on to grudges, and I too have times where I simply can't let things go for awhile, but I later realize that I need to let it go because if I don't, I will get even more depressed and unhappy.
That is how I manage my own feelings. I do not let the bad stuff in life keep me down, and I would just wish you did the same. But you would probably reject any suggestions that I would give you, so I will stop ranting now.
I love foxes, especially the one in my avatar.