07-13-2011, 01:19 PM
Good News:
I did not break myself. Whatever is wrong has nothing to do with my habits.
Bad News:
Whatever is wrong could, over decades, become quite serious. Adult-onset tics, especially after forty, usually are the first symptoms of horrible diseases. I've been pouring over medical books and the net, and almost everything I can find talks about shortened life spans, fatality, dementia, and so on. There's mentions of inheritance through one's mother's line, as well. My mother died with dementia (and would have lived longer with it if strokes hadn't done her in), my aunt is dying with it, and it's likely my grandmother and great-grandmother also died with it. Several females in my family have died with it.
If I can stop this ahead of time, I will. I will not depart without both my memories and my zest for living in the moments. I've told myself this ever since I was a child who knew her grandmother and the mother of her grandmother had passed forgetting everything.
This means EEGs and MRIs... again...
Brain scans, in other words.
I can't take further action after that until March, most likely. The baby is due for March, and it so happens that, with the way brain testing works, I'll have to wait until around March to receive an official prognosis. That's fine. I have decades, maybe decades and decades, to prepare if this what I suspect. If it's not what I suspect, well, either way, hope and knowledge are our best guides.
I did not break myself. Whatever is wrong has nothing to do with my habits.
Bad News:
Whatever is wrong could, over decades, become quite serious. Adult-onset tics, especially after forty, usually are the first symptoms of horrible diseases. I've been pouring over medical books and the net, and almost everything I can find talks about shortened life spans, fatality, dementia, and so on. There's mentions of inheritance through one's mother's line, as well. My mother died with dementia (and would have lived longer with it if strokes hadn't done her in), my aunt is dying with it, and it's likely my grandmother and great-grandmother also died with it. Several females in my family have died with it.
If I can stop this ahead of time, I will. I will not depart without both my memories and my zest for living in the moments. I've told myself this ever since I was a child who knew her grandmother and the mother of her grandmother had passed forgetting everything.
This means EEGs and MRIs... again...
Brain scans, in other words.
I can't take further action after that until March, most likely. The baby is due for March, and it so happens that, with the way brain testing works, I'll have to wait until around March to receive an official prognosis. That's fine. I have decades, maybe decades and decades, to prepare if this what I suspect. If it's not what I suspect, well, either way, hope and knowledge are our best guides.